Sunday, January 14, 2007

happily ever after


i was told by my supervisor that there are generally two kinds of people: those who looks to the past and deals with guilt or the those who looks to the future and struggles with worry. both types do what they do so they can avoid the present- where their attention should be. I am definitely a worrier. i am always anticipating worse case scenario and planning accordingly. that, or i place all the responsibility of a perfect future onto my shoulders which leads to idealistic desires and close to postal freak out sessions. I look to the future because I can plan that. I can convince myself that I can be in control of it- opposed to the unpredictable present.
I had a friend tell me that life for the Christian is like a football game. at half time you are in the locker room getting the crap kicked out of you and the coach comes in and 100% guarantees that you will win the game. how would you go out and play in the second half? my answer- like a madman. even if i my neck gets snapped, i will still get to experience the exiliration of the win. translation in all of that, is that I have been promised some amazing things from God, yet I am still going out and living life like I don't know the outcome, like I don't know who and what wins in the end.

it's good to know that my worse case scenario is pretty, well, amazing.

i am a worrier, but what are you? i would love to hear what era you spend the most time in.